So many things to talk about....
So many things to talk about. To start I have made and lost many friends. To be honest I still talk to some of them but most of them I don't talk to them anymore. Mostly b/c we drifted apart or we just don't catch up like we used to. Some of that is my fault as much as it is theirs. So it's an even mix of mine/their fault. However in one case it's mostly her fault. I tried to make nice and still be her friend but she kept ignoring me in general. She came back up here for the fourth and ended up chilling with a lot of people and basically ignored me in terms of us chilling at all. I was trying to hang with her while we chilled with everyone there and it never happened. Then she came back for school and we hung out some and she ended getting a bf and that's when it just stopped. She stopped calling altogether (even before she rarely did.) and stopped returning my calls and texts. So to say the least I felt totally burned. Aside from that I made other friends and filled the void she left at least at first. But I really do miss her sometimes and wish we had not departed that way, but I don't know if I pushed her away or if she stopped caring. Don't care really, (although by saying that you know I do.) Not gonna name her name it doesn't need mentioning. Then going from that I moved in with an old friend from high school and that totally was a bad thing from the start. Should've seen that from 5 miles away but I didn't. That led into me staying there for 3 months-ish and I spent more money there than anywhere else. BAsically that was a an issue of my friends fiancee would not look for work and maintain a steady job. She tried to a degree but not as hard as I felt she needed to be. So I moved out. Last known bit of info about them was they were still dating and the friend of theirs still friend of their's even after some stuff happened between us and him. That was basically some things went down at the apartment and he was blamed for some of it and I did some blaming myself (guilty as charged) but she immediately tried to blame him for it being missing. Makes me wonder how long it'll be till something happens when she finds a better dick to fuck and ditches her fiancee. Cause I felt she was falky all the way around. MAybe that's just me though. *Shrugs* And yes I still care about that. That was my one way of getting out of my parents place and it fell in so now I want a place of my own real bad. Or a roommate to join me. Anyways. That's a work-in-progress esp. as I get other things in order. Like my organization skills and a good handle on my life. Anyways I suppose that it's for now... major ramble-de-bamble.